The more I try to run from you,
The more I end up near.
I try to get back to what I was,
But experience a deep rooted fear.
I am hating you at this moment.
It seems that I don’t have a choice.
I wish I could tell you, this isn’t me.
But I guess, I have lost my voice.
Do you also hate me, I don’t know.
I wish I could just cry.
I am pushing you far away from me.
Without ever giving it a try.
I am telling, that I am angry with you.
But you know the truth, I know.
You can see how much I love you;
Even if I fail to show.
If I behave with you as before;
Would you still find some fault?
I wish this is a nightmare.
That soon comes to a halt.
I want to smile & laugh with you.
I want to be your little kid.
To tell you the serious things that troubled me;
And all the funny ones I did.
So many days have passed & I am tired;
Of keeping you out of my life.
Hiding all my happiness from you;
And masking all my strife.
I am fed up of pretending like this.
Will you accept me as I was?
Can we continue from where we stopped?
It has been a long pause.
Hey, you didn’t like the way I am.
Hence, I tried to change.
Still you are unhappy about it!
That seems so very strange.
Your words always said;
That I mean a lot to you.
But it didn’t show in action.
Were you being untrue?
I didn’t know our relationship;
Will reach such a weird stage-
That I have to act not in the way I want.
But according to my age!
So, I became a new person.
Now, what do you really miss?
If growing up means,
to get detached from you.
Then why aren’t you content with this?
I thought we were friends forever.
And were always meant to be so.
But you stopped being the person.
I once knew long ago.
OK. Next time you tell me what to do.
Shall we sign a pact?
Don’t criticize me so often.
My love won’t remain intact.
Stop it. I have had enough of this.
It hurts & I am in pain.
Am I good enough for you now?
Or have I tried & tried in vain?
I promise I won’t be childish.
Tell me what rules to obey.
I will try to follow your guidelines.
And listen to what you say.
All this is not a mood swing.
Or some excuse new.
I am just trying to improve myself;
So I could be loved by you!!!