(Its ironical that I am writing this poem, after a positive feeling like “never-ending love” but I guess, that’s what life is all about. It is a great big irony. Sometimes, the love that grows inside you and the one you think is so deep, at one point of time is as shallow as shallow can be….)
Have I condemned you to live
when all you want is death?
Have I forced you to suffer
for my own pleasure?
Have I chained you
to a life you don’t want?
Have I wounded you
beyond measure?
Have I made you emotional
and weak in heart?
Have I made you
so vulnerable?
Have I messed your plans
and compelled you to be happy?
And made you so unstable?
I wanted my love
to guide you back
And keep all feelings
in you, intact
But I could not beat
the demons you brought from your past
Living each day
hoping it to be your last
My love is tainted
‘coz it gave you false hope
A happiness so vast
that you failed to cope
You still ache
with those memories so old
So many secrets
between us, untold
Even with years of closeness
I could not be
Someone who will wipe
all your pain
Your hurt’s so deep
Your sorrow so endless
That all my efforts
have gone in vain
I could not give you
a reason to laugh
or a reason for you to smile
I could not give you
a reason to be important
As you have become
for me, in a while
Neither could I give you
a reason to forget
nor a reason for you, to leave
A reason to look forward
to the future
Or a reason, to believe
And now my love
is a burden for you
It won’t let you live
It won’t let you die
From outside,
its as perfect as can be
Yet in true form
All it does, is make you cry…..
